Cracking Up.

Ok so today my random crying fits went from being reserved only for the night time, to a full blown tantrum at midday....It's not looking good for my sanity.

 You see I had German school, we had a SAC I didn't know about...luckily it was listening so I was fine-plus I get my SAC sores from my school's German classes anyway. However I'd gone to bed late-gotten up early and haven't slept well in a week coz I stress my self out to the point of insomnia....not so bad I guess.

But that was only the beginning.....(yes I enjoy being overly dramatic...what of it?!?)

It was all supposed to get better, and yet no. I had plans to go out to dinner and a movie with Mum (yes I am THAT cool....), I was calm, just doing homework and getting prepared for the week ahead. All was well - the trees were swinging the birds were singing-Until I read my emails....

I got a rather (and by rather I mean very) catty email from one of my teachers who failed my essay and told me to re-write it. Barely restraining my need to reply with something even cattier I went to start on it...already tearing up and considering joining the circus when my work called. It turns out I had a seven hour shift today I didn't know about. The very angry call from my manager telling me to get into work or don't come back at all did it....

 The stress of four impending SACs, Mum leaving for Germany, Homework, my fail essay and then work too made me snap. So after walking around the house aimlessly for about fifteen minutes (having a meltdown), trying not to be a nutter (failing), I got into the car (sobbing like a spastic) and got to work (all panda-eyed and teary.) Note: I've bracketed how mental I really was so if you ignore them it sounds like I responded in a normal/mature way.

They asked if I needed to go home to calm down...that's how mental I was.

It's looking good....March and I'm already cracking up. Please just let me be back in Germany already!

Hope all is well.